Most of the time I feel like I have to have everything figured out. Like if I don’t I’ve somehow failed. Even while writing this blog post I’ve gone back and forth thinking:
“Oh no, that topic isn’t good enough.”
“That topic’s been done too many times already.”
“My blog is way too short.”
“Well that sentence sounds dumb.”
“I have no idea what I’m doing!”
And meanwhile as I’m stressing myself out & feeling incompetent, God’s telling me:
“Anna it doesn’t matter what you think is “good enough” or has been done “too many times”. All these little details you’re freaking out about don’t really even matter. What matters is that you walk in obedience to write this blog post as I’ve called you to & do your best in the process. You may not know what you’re doing, but I do. Now just give me all these little things that are bringing you anxiety & stress & let me take care of it.”
He is big enough that he will use whatever he calls me to write to bless & encourage others, no matter how often it’s been done or how qualified I think I am. He doesn’t need us to put him in a box. He’s got it all figured out so we don’t have to. That’s why He’s God & we’re us. We’re cute little humans who are going to make lots of mistakes & who are never going to know all the details. We don’t need to know & God in His grace doesn’t want to put us through knowing details that might make us hyperventilate or freak out to the point where we aren’t paying attention to Him. I mean, we do enough of that already in our daily lives. More often than not He’s standing next to us waving his arms like,
“Hey, guys!! I’m over here!! Do you realize that by stressing out & giving in to your anxiety & insecurities you’re ignoring me?? Put those silly things away & come play with me! I’m lonely! Why are you stressing yourself out thinking about all these things I didn’t ask you to even think about?! Just give it all back to me & let me worry about it. Come take my hand & play with me.”
Funny how time & time again we put God into a box, right? Well, God probably doesn’t think it’s funny. He probably just feels bad for us since we seem to keep making the same mistakes over & over again instead of trusting in Him. But Praise the Lord he still wants us! Praise The Lord that even when we make mistakes & act like silly little children he still calls us back to him time & time again. He extends us his grace not out of pity, but as an extravagant gift of his love.
Why don’t we just drop everything we’re stressing out about, let go of the things that don’t matter & cling to Him? Allow Him to carry us through each decision, each and every day, and trust that the direction He takes us is going to be exceptionally better than any direction we could ever go on our own.
My prayer for you today is that you will let go of the silly things you’ve been holding onto, the silly things you’ve been making a bigger deal about than they actually are. Ask God to lead & guide you & let Him carry you through every single little thing you’re going through in life.
And please, lovely friend, remember to cut yourself some slack. You are doing SO great. You are extravagantly loved. You are beautiful. You are here for a very specific purpose & you are exactly where you’re supposed to be.
I hope you all have the loveliest of weekends. I’m praying for you. -Anna
As a side note, a few days ago when I was asking God what I should blog about I kept hearing the word, “grace.” I’ve been battling him on that topic ever since & honestly freaking out because all I could think about is, “I don’t know how to write about grace! What would I even write about?! That’s such a big topic!” So after freaking out for a couple of days I finally packed up my laptop & Bible, walked to a coffee shop, asked God to lead & guide me, & started typing whatever I started thinking about… obviously my thoughts on how I was freaking out. But silly Anna, by the time I finished writing out my thoughts I realized that this scenario demonstrates exactly what grace means. Praise the Lord. When we ask Him to lead & guide us He never fails.
“Let us then in confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy & find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, & thank him for all he has done.” Philippians 4:7