I think in stories. Always. I sometimes without realizing it subconsciously find myself narrating my life. It makes sense in a way. I love stories. And books. And the smell of old books but the sound that new ones make when you crack them open. In all honesty, I like the idea of being Elizabeth Bennet from Pride and Prejudice and reading somewhere in a lush field with the sun on my face and my heart completely filled by the warm tales of those I read.
I've heard the analogy often that God has a story for you. One where you are going to find joy and love and a happy ending, but I was skeptical at times to whether or not that was true. Don't get me wrong, as I mentioned before I am quite the story enthusiast. I am all for tales and dreams coming true but what does the creator of heaven, earth, moon, and stars have interest in creating one for me? One with interesting life bringing characters that you find in your favorite novels or one with crazy plots and struggles that ultimately are overcome even when it seems hopeless?
One day while praying (or maybe day dreaming...I'm not to sure. But maybe because I'm not too sure it means I was day dreaming) I felt like God said "Abby. I have a story for you and you're the protagonist." Instantly I was taken back to gr. 9 english class where we learned the elements of a story: the protagonist was the main charterer. In a typical story line the protagonist is often the hero or heroine. If written well they are real and relatable. They always face adversity but it is their destiny to overcome it. Thus began my journey of viewing my life as one epic novel.
It helps. When things get hard and it feels like it's you against the world. It helps to view yourself as the protagonist of the story. For we really aren't alone. It isn't you who has the story line of your life written out; you have quite the author:
" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
It sometimes can feel like you're Katniss before she volunteers as tribute or -- if we're thinking biblically-- Esther before she is presented to the king. But know we are bound to have struggles and hard times but that doesn't mean we can't have a happy ending. God really cares about us and who we are and whether or not we will succeed, like any good author who has worked very hard at carefully crafting characters and plots would. We all have encountered horrible events that if they did not happen would not have somehow set us up for something so much better than we could have imagined. Don't you see? We are not destined to fail.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time." Ecclesiastes 3:11
So get excited about life! I do. How could I not, when I literally have a grand destiny ahead of me? I've had my fair share of crappy moments, buckets of tears and times where I was so overwhelmed that it felt like I couldn't breathe. But right now I am happy sitting here on my couch typing away noisily at my keyboard and listening to BORNS as I resist the urge to eat the box of Cheez-Its in my cupboard because I've already brushed my teeth. I'm happy because my story has been pretty sweet so far. My life has kind of been a bunch of crazy coincidences that all seem to work out (God doesn't do plot holes). I am thrilled to see what's next in my life, story or whatever you want to call it, and I think you should be thrilled for what is next in yours as well.