“Wait on Me, My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you’re anxious about many things, and I see your passion for all the plans I have put in your heart. I know that you long to fly, and I see your enthusiasm. However, just as a vine-dresser nurtures the vine and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so too am I working tirelessly to prepare you to bear much fruit. Don’t run ahead of Me or try to fly before My plans are complete. Your strength will fail you, and your dreams will wither away. Trust Me that My dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will patiently wait for the season of My blessing. Draw close to Me now, and I promise that this season of waiting will bring you the sweetest of rewards.
Love, Your King and Lord of perfect timings”
((From the devotional book His Princess by Sheri Rose Shepherd))
I’ve had this excerpt taped to the wall above my bed for almost a year and a half. I’ve read it so much I almost have it fully memorized. The last two years have been the hardest of my life as I’ve battled health issues and God’s call to learn to rest. When I became super sick during an outreach with YWAM LA to Thailand God told me loud & clear to “go home, learn how to rest, & DO NOT get a job.” If you know me super well you know that chilling out doesn’t come easily to me. I am always thinking about different things I want/need to do alllll the time. So being told not to get a job was a massive shock to my system. Also, more than anything I desire to make a difference in the entertainment & fashion industries for the Kingdom of God. I remember when I was about nine years old (while mowing the lawn) I’d decided that when I grew up I would become a celebrity’s personal assistant, bring them to Christ, & move on to the next celebrity who needed Jesus’ love. Actually, at first I thought I could clean their pools or mow their lawns to build relationships with them… but I think I decided that would be too much manual labor. Haha! Ever since that summer day as I mowed the lawn for my weekly allowance I’ve continued to feel strongly that God desires to use me in entertainment & fashion industry professionals’ lives. He has already used me in mighty ways through my involvement with Beauty Arise & outreaches with Models For Christ while I lived in LA. Praise the Lord! And I know that even though it might look super different now that I’m in Idaho He’s still using me even during this time at home to minister to industry professionals’ lives, even if most days it’s through prayer.
You can imagine that for me (like all of us) life has been super discouraging at times. Especially when I went from having okay health & feeling like all my dreams & desires were within reach while living in LA, back to living in a farm town of 3,000 people & not knowing on any given day how my body might feel. It’s super easy to get bummed out if I let myself. But I have God & I have His promises that He’s doing super amazing things during this time behind the scenes. He’s working everything together for my good as I love & trust in Him. So I will continue to wait on Him & trust that He knows what He’s doing. I’ll take things day by day & choose to be joyful that He has me covered. Because when we walk with God, then we can’t possibly be running behind in life. I still dream all the time at night that I’m back living in LA, working in Hollywood or volunteering with Models For Christ at fashion week. And I still really hope that God will send me back to LA to love on people working in Hollywood & to be more active in Beauty Arise, but I surrender these dreams to Him. Because if it’s in His will then I want it to be done in His timing, & even if He doesn’t send me back to LA to live again I’ll trust in Him. Be encouraged friends that whatever it is in life you’re hoping for today… a husband, babies, a successful career or ministry, full health, etc. that God has got you covered. Choose to rest in His strength & wait on Him for whatever it is you hope for in this life. Praise the Lord that when we walk with God we won’t be running behind His schedule for our lives.
Love you all,
“But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31