Who I am in Christ

This week I had the incredible opportunity to work at LA fashion week with a ministry called Beauty Arise! A bunch of us girls from different schools here at the base, left during the afternoon to work backstage with the designers and models! Our jobs were to be servants and provide a peaceful atmosphere for this environment.

Along with working at LA Fashion week, we also had to still attend classes everyday. I believe God had this week set up perfectly with our speaker Kenny Peavy and his teaching on how to walk with authority in our identity in Christ! On Monday I wasn’t sure how everything was going to work for this week but during class God showed up in an incredible way. In Psalm 100:4 it says ” Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.” Kenny, showed us how to enter in with thanksgiving and giving all the glory to God. I have done this before, but something just clicked in my brain where I truly understood what is was like to enter in with thanksgiving. While this was happening Kenny was sensing some heavy stuff that was going on and he asked us questions. He asked if anyone had Fear of Man? So, hands went up all over the room and he told us we were going to get rid of it. He asked us to stand up and I had no idea what he was going to do. He told us we have the power to send the fear back to where it belongs. So all over the room we started speaking out “I command you spirit of Fear of Man to be gone, back to its place of origin. You have no right here, so be gone in the name of Jesus.” After that Kenny went on to asking about more fears. The fears were shame, lust, rejection, abandonment, comparison and so many more. I know with fashion week, that I was going to compare myself to these models. There is something so heavy about the fashion industry and it is not what people say it is. When he asked about comparison, I kept standing and I gave it to God and let him show me who I was in him. I am his precious daughter, a fighter, and his sweet one. He kept revealing what he thought of me and I was so overwhelmed of how he saw me. Even thinking about it now I cannot stop smiling because he loves me so much. I know God had everything planned out perfectly for Monday and getting rid of those fears!

The fashion industry is not what people think it is, and its full of lost people who are hurting. So many of these models just crave to find out who they are and how beautiful they are. Going into this and seeing how everything works my heart just broke for these girls. There was such a spiritual warfare going on this week and I knew that praying during this week. It was going to be so important to do. I was so scared to go to fashion week because I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I knew that I was going to help backstage and dress models but there was just this nervousness in me. When we got on the bus, we starting praying together for this week that we would be a light in the darkness and show these models their true beauty. After that I prayed to God for peace and for my nerves to calm down and he did that. When I stepped off the bus I was at peace and knew that God was walking with me. For the first part of the day we helped out if they needed and got showed around the place. Once it got closer to the show, we grouped up and got assigned to our models and prayer for our night. I was assigned to Brianna and she was just so sweet and we connected really well. While she was getting her hair and make up done. I asked God what he wanted me to do with her. He told me just show her love by your actions, because your actions show me. I trust you to take good care of her and show her my love by your actions. I was so in awe that he trust me to do this and I did exactly what he wanted me to do. I would run and just serve her and love her. Brianna asked me if I have ever done dressing before and I told her this was my first time. With that she encourage me and told me that I would be amazing because she trusts me to get her into all her outfits in time. That was so encouraging to me to hear because I was so nervous about not getting her into her next outfit in time. She was part of a big show that was showing Sue Wong’s designs and there were so many dresses and head pieces it was overwhelming. That whole night went smooth and there was still stress but not as bad as I thought it would be.

The rest of the week was the same and learning that I have the authority to rebuke things off and away.  He blew my mind on how I can impact the fashion world. It was so amazing to hear that I was someone's angel and helped other models feel beautiful even when they do not. My last model was Courtney and having her say that she has never experience the kind of treatment that we showed her and the others. It touched her heart and the fact I would take time to pray for her during the craziness of backstage and pray she would have peace while walking. That she would have a good night despite the possibility of getting yelled at by people that she would not let that overtake her. God totally had this week planned right and everything fell into place with the lecture and fashion week. I am exhausted but it was all worth it, to show people his love, compassion, and kindness. He is worth it and I love making my father happy! I love finding out who I am in him and how he sees me. I am excited to be this six year old little girl and have childlike faith and just love on my daddy. The big things I learned this week is the power of authority I have, to be his little girl with childlike faith, and enjoy being in the present and not be worried about my past or future. He knows it and he wants me to trust him and let him lead me to where he wants! I learned that God wants to steal me away from what I am doing, so that I can discover him more. I am ready to dive into next week and see what he wants to show me.

-Kenzie